Dear Syuhai - here goes the tagging. (ooh azie tu aku, i tot orang len)

Tag 8 people:
Farina (ko kena buat jugak), Adrian, Tote, Min, Fatma, Hanin , Farah Lily, Tun Mahathir (aci tak, ahahah)

Describe yourself in one word:
Complicated

Who would you pick, someone who really loves you, or the one you love?:
Someone who really loves me

Have you ever loved someone before but never had the courage to tell him/her?:
No, i always do the chase.

How would you deal with a face to face rejection?:
If its serious relationship, i'll cry.. but if its not.. i pretend to be sad, and go have fun!!

God is giving you just 5 more minutes before going back to Heaven. IF you love someone special, what will you say to that person?:
Ayu jaga abang dari atas ye, sayang...

What would you say to a person who doesn't want to believe you?:
Lantak kau laa..

Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone?:
Yes, and it fails..miserably

What's your opinion about someone who's jealous?:
Obsessive jealousy - GET A LIFE..
Healthy jealousy - YOU'RE OK..

Do you have something special with you all the time?:
I do..

Best place to cry?:
On his shoulder..

Who do you love the most?:
They know who they are...

Tell us of your dream last night?:
On a weird vacation with adrian...

Ever hated someone so bad?:
YEAH! But not anymore... i forgave your stupidity..

The biggest and most hurtful lie you've heard?:
I LOVE YOU... BUT...

The last person you had a beer with?:
Can i change beer to teh 'o' ais limau? - SAYANGKU HAMDAN

The last person you went to the movies with?:
SAYANGKU HAMDAN & Deny

The last person you talked on the cell phone with?:
SAYANGKU HAMDAN (dont puke, bear with me..ahahah)

The last person you hugged?:
person Cat : Okah & Okid

The last person you yelled at?:
person Cat : Okah & Okid (im not a spinster with lots of cats, k!)

In the last week, have you kissed someone?:
Adrian. (freaky lesbo.. btw, its on the cheek)

Danced crazy?:
Eaaaaa... back in school years..

Think of the last time you were angry, why were you angry?:
Abang tak nak beli sate, dan lupa beli buah.. (we fought over the smalles things possible, :p)

If you could do anything, or wish anything, what would it be?:
I wanted a second chance.. to be more respectful towards myself...

If you could have an all expense paid trip, where will you go?:
Around the world??

Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?:
In the most subtle but cruel way..

Are you old fashioned?:
Sumtimes..

What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?:
NONE. I tell the truth...

What would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?:
SAYANGKU HAMDAN

Five facts about me:
I : am so full of emotions
: take responsibilites very seriously
: do not tolerate nonsense
: laugh a lot when im happy
: love my friends eventhough they're far away

Five things that scare me:
1. Creepy Crawling or Flying Insects (Top of the list - Cockroach)
2. Chronic diseases
3. Losing loved ones
4. No MONEY
5. Ghosts

Two songs playing in my head lately:
Menjaga hati - Yuvie & Nuno
Take a bow - Rihanna

Five things I treasure in my life:
LOVE, HEALTH, WEALTH, FRIENDSHIP, PEACE

adios,
xoxo

alo aloha..

while google-ing my name yesterday, i found this!!

alo aloha..

i changed the layout today.. i do realize that the previous layout was a little bit unfriendly, and childish..wuahahah.. (forgive the first timer experience).. i did accidentally deleted a few of my older entries (huhuhuhuuu)

i spent almost the whole working hours today getting this done, and the next wud be updating my long forgotten FS and FB..

aku tak keje ke? keje.. tapi kasik laa rilek sket, tender baru submit maa.. lembu pun tau penat... (sape berani cakap kat bos dia gini?)

my lil bro is getting engaged this weekend so off we go to Kelantan Darul Naim.. hoping that it wont rain this Sunday, may the sun shine as bright as my brother's hopes and dreams..

last weekend, i attended the required "kursus pra-perkhawinan", was very exhausted since i just arrived the previous night from kl, demi sijil itu.. ku gagahkan jua..
the input i get = priceless..
ada satu perkara yang ustaz tu sebut which i wanted to share:

since i do have lots of friends who dates married man, please girls... jangan anggap apa awak buat tu tak salah, kalau orang tu jujur dan tulus, he wont hide you from his wife.. kalau sekarang pun awak bleh nampak yang dia dah tak tanggungjwab dengan adil, (do not lie to yourself), what makes you think he'll change for you.. and to my friend who actually married the man tapi sekarang merana kerana hubby nye cari 3rd wife which is undoubtedly younger and prettier, sabarla.. anggap ni pembalasan dunia atas apa ko buat pada wife 1st dia.. (sorry to say this)

im not perfect myself, i nearly got myself in this kind of mess too once, tapi masih ada ruang dan peluang pada semua orang untuk perbetulkan kesalahan sendiri, susah.. memang susah.. tapi kalau awak dah tau depan tu jalan mati.. kenapa teruskan jugak, lagi lambat awak berenti, lagi lama lah perjalanan balik...

to farina: i envy your pics with ZHM, and no matter how i wish, i still cannot turn back time to attend the press release of Impak Maksima the Musical..sob² & lets google other's names and published what we get!! (haha)

to peonate & ayentzl: happy birthday!! a year older a year wiser (may this come true)

adios,
xoxo

as i was chatting to najmin yesterday, i remembered one incident that i had intended to write down in my blog but forgotten...

5. caught red-handed
- to those who knew, they'll know that my bos is stationed in kl and here in ramunia we "can work with minimal supervision" (ayat normal dalam resume)
- they will also know that i usually sleep on my bos's room couch when i feel lazy (which is rare, trust me)
- one fine day, feeling the blues.. i decided to take a nap, tengok line clear.. couch tu pun kosong (bukan aku sorang je eaaa,semua..) aku pun masuk laa...
- nak bukak air-con..cam sejuk je tak jadi laa..
- baru je.. baru sangat aku nak landing.. baru nak menonggeng.. kreok...
- there he was.. my beloved bos..
- ...............................................................................
- ..............................................................................
- azhe: eheheee.. sory sory che den, sya ingat che den kat kl, sory ye (sipu2 malu, aku kuar)
- i did not remember what he said, or his expressions.. (or maybe aku dah tak bleh dengar, telinga aku dah berdesing..dan mata aku dah kabur)
- smpai sekarang, aku tak tido lagi dah atas sofa tu..

6. memories as an announcer..
- aku teringat mende ni tadi, my partner was tote a.k.a lina
- di satu petang, hujan renyai².. duty cam biasa..
- tiba².. tersembul satu kepala dari belakang dinding tepi pintu..
- dengan rambut tajam2 yang kat hujung² dia ada titis² air hujan bergantung...
- titis air hujan tu kaler kelabu² sket sebab mungkin dah mixed ngan minyak rambut..
- muka toye dan selamba, "bleh tolong panggil A**a* tak, form 5.." dan dia hilang...
- the minute he's gone, aku pandang tote, tote pandang aku... dan bersembur la gelak ngilai²
- dan satu masalah dah timbul, sape nak announce, ketawa tak bleh berenti ni..
- kalau tengah announce tergelak nanti kena marah..
- to cut it short.. sakit paru2 aku announce sambil tahan gelak, tapi tak berjaya jgak laa sebab tersembur gak akhir² ayat..
- aku tak tau apa yang lucu sangat, zaman sekolah dulu, semua pun seronok.. aku ingat first time aku tengok g-string ngan tote dan seri kat the mall
- gelak sampai tak cukup nafas, aku ingat lutut aku lembik sampai tak bleh jalan.. and seriouly aku merangkak.. (dulu² bukan ramai pun orang kat the mall)
- akak sales girl tu pun gelak.. mungkin gelak pada reaction kitorang pada mende alah tu yang sekarang dah tak ada makna lagi dah..

aku rindu my girls, jauh mana pun terpisah, lama la macam mana pun.. kalau aku susah diorang sentiasa ada.. masa aku down dulu tahun 2 kat u, weeza, seri, tote, min.. thanks a lot.. dan paling aku hargai, fijo call aku dari uk.. aku nak korang tau aku juga ada untuk korang wherever, whenever.. may Allah bless all of you always... muah muah muah!!!

adios,
xoxo

yes i am very angry with you..

i am very frustrated with you..

after all this years, you never know how to actually soothe me...

i am dissapointed in your way of solving problems that we had..

i feel a tint of regret being in a relationship with you which nowadays seems so dull and stucked
(which i do not even realize when we are ok)

i am tired of trying to ensure that our paths are crossed daily and maintaining an open and healthy communication

i am so exhausted to be everything that you ever wanted while not getting anything back in return

do i hate you?
yes i do

i really do

i hate you.

need to say more?

yes, i really do hate you

adios,
no xoxo

whoa..quite some time since i last wrote.. couldn't find the time to do it.... actually, sekarang pun still busy, tapi since aku kat kl hq and the pc i shud be using is blocked by it dept and adrian's away to sumplace, aku decide nak "tumpang guna" pc dia jap..

arrived at kl at 2.oo am last nite and since we have no choice left, decided to stay at the Leo Palace Hotel.. the place is ok, but a piercing women's scream and kids giggling laughter woke me up last nite.. ada hantos ka? but i was too tired to care, just plead that they do not come into my room..

there are a few things occured in the last few weeks since my last entry, which i made a mental note to jot down....

1. My New House
- i wish i have piccies to upload, since i really adore my new house...
- and 0-0 loves it too, their playing space is thrice the size it was before
- only 1 thing that scares me, the pile of kayu-kayu lama behind the house, which happened to be the natural habitat of the scaly reptiles, snakes.. (i soothe down my paranoia by sprinkling sulphur a.k.a belerang around the house)

2. My first raya guests at the new house
- happened to be 2 boys around the age of 10-11
- on a SUNDAY morning, haloooo
- i was still in bed, i thought it was my neighbour's son sending me breakfast, eheheheh
- assalamualaikum..assalamualaikum... nak raya... (brings me back to reality)
- i did not even let them in; "akak duduk sorang la dik, baru pindah ni haa.. akak bagi duit raya je laa ea'
- haha.. i bought them with money, feeling bad.. i decided to give them a little extra.. Rm2 each
(all in coins, since the smallest change i have is Rm10)
- i have to forked out almost all of my "Sens saves lives - MAKNA" tabung to make up the Rm4 i decided to give
- after i closed the door, they stayed in front of the house, loudly counting the money i gave.. "seposen tiga posen lima posen....." (bertuah punya budak)
- that evening... as i was cleaning out my cats litter box. i heard a faint sound of assalamualaikum.. then it gets louder.. dalam hati, "mak aih.. ramai nye kat luar tuh..alamak!! ni mesti kes aku kasik Rm2 dah tersebar satu kampung"
- my decision, i stayed put silent as a mouse, praying that they leave soon.. ahahahah (aku dah tak ada duit raya nak kasik!!)
- with the tv on, they did not budge easily.. after about 10 minutes of assalamualaikum, nak raya (which gradually turning to angry notes) they finally leave... (ya ampun budak2)

3. Mak, abah and atuk's visit
- they paid me a visit last deepavali holiday..
- and when they leave, my house is upgraded!!
- ehehheee.. lets just say, casa impian's team serang rumah aku and changed almost everything..
- curtains, lighting, furnitures, pinggan mangkuk, and the list goes on..
- TERIMA KASIH MAK, ABAH, ATUK!!
- in return, i brought them to visit the "crocodile farm" at telok sengat
- the outcome = hillarious (abah ngan aku baling batu kat buaya ni.. dont worry, kulit dia tebal and the stones are small, why.. because we want to see croc's in action, results = extremely successful, mandi air buaya kitorang kena simbah..)

4. keje..keje..keje
- a new tender is on hand now
- tapi drawing dia amatlah kecil.. which calls for magnifying glass..
- sakit kepala aku plus pedih mata
- but i do feel like a museum curator.. studying over a piece of ancient drawing (huahauhauhaua)

seems like that is all i can remember for now, my mental's storage capacity needs upgrading.. but who cares.. hahahaaaa... adrian pun dah nak tiba balik ke meje nye selepas puas berjalan ke dept orang len..

haa.. happy birthday to siti nurlina a.k.a tote and seri!!!!
may god bless you both and bless me even more, ahahahaaa...
semoga hidup korang dipermudahkan dalam segala urusan...amin..
and most importantly, may we stay friends for thousands years to come..

heehehe..
adios,
xoxo

okah okid



the love of my life.. i adore them both "very the very the much"

eheeheee...



people's first reaction when i gave them these piccies:



seri: kucing jenis apa ni?

najmin: telinga betul ea..

kak shidah: kenapa telinga dia camtu?

angah: woo astro nye kucing ko

abang: macam kucing firaun kan (ni yang paling zalim, sampai hati abang!!)

atok mak: ni kucing hutan ni

adi: kucing hutan la ni de

ali: macam kucing hutan

mak: capang nye



pape pun, i love them.. so much.. thanks for bringing so much joy into my life..




adios,
xoxo