i've been looking forward to updating my blog, with all the excitements and drama in my life (talking about a drama queen, :p)

i've been spending the last two weeks in KL, mainly for work for the first few days..towards the end, its gala fun, muahahaha..

i've started 2009 with a crisis, very early in the morning, i had a tiff with my future-mother-in-law.. (not the first one, people..) haha.. the issue circles round the "wedding band" controversy, which until now, i haven't resolved yet.. the issue affected my fragile relationship with abang pretty badly, the thing with "between me and his mother" never favours me.. and ended up with me.. driving 140km/hr on my poor little kenari welling up in tears all the way to KL...

moi family weren't really on my side this time, i was always blamed when it comes to this kind of conflict, (why oh why??) feeling very unloved, and totally controlled by emotions, i put my whole life to god.. whether i arrived safely or not, i dont even bother.. i just want to be out of this, away for a while, leaving all the excess baggage behind me and forget it completely..temporary,sigh...

i leave office around noon, and i arrived at nilai at 4 pm sumthing, stopping to get gas, and meeting mr.cute who was promoting maybank credit cards there.. i was really not in a mood for anything, what more getting a new credit card, but he insisted.. and since he's a soothe for the eye (hahaha), i gave him what he wanted.. (sounds fishy haa, signing up for the card. of coz!!) he gave his namecard (which i'd lost later on..huhu) and the hunk name is fakhruz.. he gave my life that day a little sun shine...

2nd jan, peon's solemnization.. i didnt attend it due to some reasons, but i did went shopping with my officemate in KL.. retail therapy hah.. looks like it.. mr. fakhruz contacted me.. with his personal number (tadaaaa!!) and we're officially friends.. he put a lot of smiles on my face during the whole last week.. but before you girls started singing rihanna's unfaithful to me, please take note that i openly told him that i was engaged with a reception a few weeks away.. and we have to stick to FRIENDS ONLY relationship... he was ok with that, me? how can i say no... (haish...)

i spent the first week in KL working my guts out.. staying till very late in the night, and once until 6 am in the morning.. but that doesnt stopped me from my retail therapy sessions.. hehehe.. no guilt, none at all.. after the tender was submitted.. adrian and i spend the whole morning, asleep.. and the rest of the evening.. watching "Bedtime Stories" at KLCC.. yeehuuu!! my dear bos gave us a leave that day.. appreciating our hard work.. nice nice...

friday was spent doing office work here and there and lunch hour back to retail therapy this time at midvall.. (i shopped at KLCC, Sogo, danau kota and now midvall.. and I LIKE!!!)

i spend half of my stay at my sis's house in kg baru and another half at adrian's.. both were very good hostesses in keeping me hostage..haha.. thanks for the warmth and hospitality.. it helps me to alleviate the troubles i left behind..

finally, the day i've been looking forward to has come.. SATURDAY, the picnic day.. ouh i meet lina a.k.a tote on friday night, and we stayed at Leo Palace instead of Dynasty.. and we screamed at each other all the way from kg. baru lrt to the hotel.. what a noise..

SATURDAY is A BLAST!! from morning till the next day!! even in my sleep i couldnt stop laughing!! the picnic at Putrajaya Wetland is just what i needed.. a boost of self-esteem plus wads of positive energy!! All those laughter and fun... and the concerns later.. love you girls, and thanks a zillion for hearing me out.. the discussion we had on mother-in-laws, the tips mrs. shafi gave, the 'doa' for me.. i was deeply touched and moved.. and only God knows, how much i love you all... every single one of you, even if you were not there.. i know you'll wish me well too..

below piccies tells it all.. (courtesy of seri dhalila..i want a camera of my own..huhuhu)

after the picnic, i met iza.. my darling sharifah nurul iza.. i carefully planned my outstation get-away this time to ensure that i meet up with all those i love, and iza and lizza hademi are one of them.. due to some circumstances, i cannot meet lizza.. but we chatted on the phone.. and i met iza at alamanda.. seeing her is always pleasant.. knowing that she always cares, always there.. we catched up on each other in no time, and inviting strange stares from others in the Noodle Station due to our lesbian's act..ahahaha.. what?

later that night, we continued the madness at peon's wedding reception at pan pac, but i still have no piccies, have to wait for others to upload..buhuu.. at peon's i met halida!! long time no see her... all the other girls are the same since we left each other to meet the world 10 years ago.. how comforting!! the smiling faces, the peals of laughter, the 'gedikness..', the warmth of hugs and kissess... i felt at home..at peace with the world and myself.. i felt even more at home back at the hotel i shared with tote and fiejo.. hillarious..

and now, i'm back at telok ramunia.. back to the bundle of trouble i created and left behind.. but now i'm energized, mentally prepared.. and i will face it all.. when i feel like sinking, i'll cling to the sweet memories i had last weekend.. and i was deeply moved when i saw abang after almost 2 weeks of absence... he looks so tak terurus, with jambang dan janggut dah macam wolverine, the worried looks.. i'm sorry sayang if i hurt you so much.. and he was visibly relieved.. he told me he was relieved i came back to him, because it was his greatest fear if i ever left him... and i was.... speechless... i guess there is always someone who would love me for better or worse.... other than my dear friends..

to mr.fakhruz, (if you're reading this).. knowing you was one of the sweet memories i collected last weekend.. i had included you in my BFF list..muahahaaa.. gud luck to you in Penang, and do introduce me to your 'anak mami' when you had found the lucky girl...

my big day is just another 11 days away.. 11.. and the number will get smaller.. my doubts and fears.. mounting.. surfacing and subsiding, i guess cold feet really get the best of me.. im holding on, anticipating heart breaks and tears due to the "M.I.L" issues... but i will hold on, to the love we shared for almost 5 years.. and to the fact that i know i will be cushioned by my friends care and love all the way..

LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN....

adios,

xoxo